First let me say I regret how many days I've missed. I had every intention of keeping up with these but then crazy days at work happens, extra days with step kiddo due to Spring Break happens, and time change induced haziness happens. But I made it back in time for regrets.
I've spent a lot of time thinking about regrets. I've made it a point to have very few for one simple reason; I love my life now and what if by changing something I regret, it takes me from my husband and my life now.
So while i sometimes regret things like I never had a college experience, where would I be now? Would I have met Isaac, would I have the friends I have now? I don't like that thought so I try to view every choice in my life, good or bad, as part of what made me who I am today and not regret that.
The one area I regret is anytime I've hurt someone, intentionally or not. I hate hurting others and I deeply regret any time something I've said or done has made someone else feel bad. Every time my patience has left me too soon and I've snapped at Carolina. Every time as kids or adults where something I've said or done has hurt my sister or anyone in my family. Anytime I've lashed out at Isaac in anger and taken it too far stays with me.
I've admittedly pretty sensitive and I know how badly I feel when others hurt me and the thought of inflicting that on someone else makes me incredibly sad. So I try everyday to think before I speak or act and ask myself if I'm about to do something I will regret. I fail many times, but I hope I've saved myself a little bit of regret.
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